oh vandy

vandy’s QB is going to the DENVER BRONCOS as the 11th pick!! good lord!!

and during his interview, he said, “….a great academic education.” aaahahahahaha…that’s terrible, just goes to show how much he really learned here. education is academic. it doesn’t make sense to modify an education with academic. it should be, “vanderbilt is a great academic institution” or, “i had a fantasic education at vanderbilt,” but not, “a great academic education.” oh cutler.

i still love you!

and i am now a broncos fan. yes, i am just that shallow.

see above

you what kind of girls i hate the most? (well, besides the kind that pretend they know everything when they really don’t) the kind that get sooooooooooooo upset when they don’t get their way. just because you’re beautiful, or smart, or talented, or because you’ve always gotten your own way doesn’t mean you should always get your way. sometimes, it’s not about whether or not you’re *right* it’s just about what’s best. it’s also about giving in sometimes instead of letting the other person give in.

why can’t people just compromise on things that just aren’t that important and sacrifice their own petty needs for the good of the group / the other person? i just don’t understand why people are just so *selfish* sometimes. it really gets on my nerves!!!

well, i guess it’s part of human nature to be selfish and sometimes, it’s necessary, but i mean, coome oooooon. can’t you just be *aware* of the fact that you’re selfish, at least???

people in america in general are just selfish. we talked about this in my political philosophy class last semester. you what it is? it’s the entire way our government / political / legal systems are set up. all this “private property” business. all these negative rights that are so important. omg, i just want to scream to people, GET OVER YOURSELF. you’re not that special. you’re not that great. you’re just a human being trying to be happy and surive in this world like the rest of us. you’re NOT some inherently better being!!!

this is my pessimistic week. stay away.

Do you ever come to realization that somebody else is leading the exact life you wish you were living? It’s so discouraging and so disheartening when I find somebody who is living the life I want and living the life that I’m working hard to attain (but that I haven’t yet).

I know that the other person must have worked hard to get where she is too (btw, she totally doesn’t go to Vandy) and that she must have her own troubles, etc etc. There’s some part of me that can’t help be jealous. I mean, she IS ME except…better. I don’t really think it’s jealousy that gets to me though, it’s the deeply unsettling feeling that…I’m just not good enough. It’s like, if everything in my life had gone perfectly, I would be her, and because I fucked up, I’m where I am now.

Clearly, I’m not having a good night. It’s just kind of depressing!!! I’m trying to turn this around into a motivational thing. That I should work harder to get there, that she’s no better than I am, and that I can get there too, if I tried harder, whatever whatever.

Gosh, I’m such a girl.

i can’t wait for this semester to be over so that i can just move on with my life and become a *real* college student (sad, isn’t it?) here’re are my FINANLIZED (well, mostly anyway) plans!! hehehe

may 7 - return to Lexington
may 29 - NYC!!! (dorm: Palladium Residence Hall, 140 East 14th St)
july 30 - return to Lexington
august - stumbling blindly through china
august 20 - return to Vandy

oooh my gosh, i can’t waaaait